Then: Sept. 2005 creative writing assignment 10th grade

* assignment was to write 12 things I don't understand*

I Do Not Understand

I Do Not Understand
Why you caused me such pain
Why you screwed me in the brain
Why you caused me to go insane.

I Do Not Understand
Why you caused my soul to bleed
Why you took advantage of me
Why you left me in need.

I Do Not Understand
Why you abused me everyday
Why I was used and raped
Why you treated me like a dog that had to obey you.

I Do Not Understand
What caused you to lie,
Why you "love me" yet wanted me to die.
Why you got off on my tears as I cried.

I Do Not Understand
The lying and the cheating,
The rapes and the beatings,
Why I tried to kill myself and you were the reason.

But what I DO understand
is that I am more deserving
and worthy of love and respect.
That my body is mine
and I'm tired of the lack
of kindness and joy
in my days.

But you need to understand
That I am going to be okay!

-Sept. 27, 2005 8:15am

~Tea