Now: Sept. 2013 Poem Just Because

* written during my many mornings of insomnia rambling *

I Promise

I promise my love to you
In more ways than one.
I promise not to be dramatic
Or exaggerate the small things.
I promise to stand up when the time calls
And not be any one's doormat.
I promise to always look my best
As we are reflections of each other.
I promise to always care
Even when my demeanor doesn't show it.
I promise to tolerate your Redskins
Even though I know the Cowboys are better.
Lastly, I promise to give you all of me
Uncensored, uncut, all of the time, me.
So even when we argue
Or when you may be frustrated,
Remember these promises to you
And remember I love you.

- Sept 29, 2013 3:10am

~Tea

Then: Sept. 2005 creative writing assignment 10th grade

* assignment was to write 12 things I don't understand*

I Do Not Understand

I Do Not Understand
Why you caused me such pain
Why you screwed me in the brain
Why you caused me to go insane.

I Do Not Understand
Why you caused my soul to bleed
Why you took advantage of me
Why you left me in need.

I Do Not Understand
Why you abused me everyday
Why I was used and raped
Why you treated me like a dog that had to obey you.

I Do Not Understand
What caused you to lie,
Why you "love me" yet wanted me to die.
Why you got off on my tears as I cried.

I Do Not Understand
The lying and the cheating,
The rapes and the beatings,
Why I tried to kill myself and you were the reason.

But what I DO understand
is that I am more deserving
and worthy of love and respect.
That my body is mine
and I'm tired of the lack
of kindness and joy
in my days.

But you need to understand
That I am going to be okay!

-Sept. 27, 2005 8:15am

~Tea